Planning, planning, planning

I'm a planner. I like to know what is happening, when it is happening, for how long it will be happening and exactly what will be going on when it is happening. However, this whole kindergarten thing---has me unable to plan. I don't know what to expect. I made the school supply list for the kids, but I don't know if it is everything they will need. What if they need something else? What if we don't use what I planned for? What if...what if...what if....I'm starting to sound like Jessica, lol!

I started looking over the curriculum, but because I wasn't actually making "lesson plans", it was hard to just look through it to get an idea. Instead, I freaked and shut the book. I had a mom tell me yesterday her daughter is excited for school and especially to learn to read---great...now I have to make sure we learn to read. Oy.

Pastor asked me the other day how my nerves were. My response? I haven't k*lled anyone yet. He was like, but school hasn't started. See---all the more reason to be excited everyone is still alive and I haven't run away, lol!

Taking a vacation the last 2 weeks of August, which means I have about 1 month to get myself all settled and situated at school. Wow--that's not long and I'M SCARED!

STRESSING

I am stressing so much about school starting. Talked to the principal's wife on Monday and she was telling me to calm down, but I can't. I'm super nervous about how it is going to go. I have my own preconceived notions already of each child and it is making me freak out even more. (sigh) I have to tell myself it will be fine and I just have to wait until we get into class to see how things are, but whew...I'm freakin'!